♥, Chapters of my Life.

♥ Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

Back again. :D my boyfriend is so busy today. Until don't even have the fucking time to text me. :@ 1pm - 5pm, Bike Theory Lesson. 6pm - 1030pm, work! Wtf? !@#$% idiot rightzxc! Never mind, forgive him. Whole day rot at home watch show. Watching tv now. Waiting for baby's call. :B bye, stay tune!

Baby, please make sure you make more time for me! :)

Faithfully waiting,

10:53 PM

♥ Monday, September 27, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

Back to update. :D baby came up and find. Went down have breakfast. Then come up sleep. Wake up at around afternoon then cook fried rice. Stupid baby took my unglam pictures! :@ idiot. Shall not upload those pictures! Too unglam already, stupid idiot. After eating, sleep again. Until 7pm, baby went back. That's all for today. Bye, stay tune! :D

Babyyyyy, I love you. ^-^

Faithfully waiting,

10:58 PM

♥ Sunday, September 26, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

Sorry for not posting yesterday. Was home quite late. Didn't use the computer nor the lappy. Talked to baby on the phone. Well, went Bugis yesterday with baby. Meet Michelle at Sim Lim Square there der bus stop. Then went The Verge. Nothing to walk. Bought necklace. :D couple couple with Michelle der. Then walk to Bugis Street, Teti and her boyfriend joined us after that. Then went Geylang lor 41. Stupid baby idea, eat smelly tofu. Smell like shit lea! Omg, disgusting. :( after that, went home. Baby send me home then he went back. Sweet eh. :) today rot at home. Michelle came up and pass me charger then went out le. :) nothing much to post already. Bye, stay tune!

Baby is stupid! Eat stupid smelly tofu! :@

Faithfully waiting,

8:07 PM

♥ Friday, September 24, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

Woke up at around 10plus. On lappy, used awhile then went shower. Prepared then went down Bugis meet Hongwei. Interviewed then meet JunJie's mum. Went over to Guan Yin Temple pray. Then had lunch. Went over to Pasta De Waraku for dessert. :D oreo parfait, banana choc parfait and baked cheese cake. Yummy. After then walk around at iluma, was bored. So went over junction. His mom go re-contract her line, after that went Bugis Street. Walk around and saw Beibei there. :D after that, had dinner. Then went over OG walk walk. After that, went Rochor there take 48 home. I stand and sleep in the bus, :x tired die me. Reached home, shower, watched tv then now using lappy again. Messaging with my cute boyfriend naoz.

Babybaby, i miss you so much la. D: you're an idiot. I love you.

Faithfully waiting,

10:50 PM

♥ Thursday, September 23, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

Here to update my site again. :D have nothing much to post actually. Just wanna keep my blog updated. Am waiting for my dearest boy to finish work now. :) nothing much to post already. :D

Bby, i'll never break your heart.

Faithfully waiting,

8:47 PM

♥ Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

Alright, i'm here to update again. Well, have been staying at home. So I have nothing much to post. Everyday doing the same things, i'm getting sick and tired of it. I wanna go out. Please, forward the time. I need to go out to vent out everything. I'm so stress. And I can't take it anymore.

Well, broke up on 5th monthsary. How wonderful? Now that we've go our separate ways, you should be happy. Right? Yea, our texts are getting lesser and shorter. And I see you change, you're no longer the same. I forgave and forget doesn't mean that I really let you do everything you want. Everything has a limit. Please get this right. I forget about everything you did, doesn't mean that you can repeat it again and again. You're hurting me like nobody's business. I tolerated everything. For this 5months, haven't I done my part as a girlfriend? I've done alot, sacrifice alot. Yet this is what I get in the end. So why do I still think of you now? You left a deep scar behind. I want to let go, but I can't. You make me fall so deep. I tried to give you everything, trying to give in each time we quarrel. But you seems to take everything for granted, like I owe you everything. I don't live to please people, I live to please myself. Why am I doing so much? I love you the strongest and craziest, but you took my love for granted. If everything could start over, I won't cry, i'll let you know I can be fine. You make me feel that its not worth loving you so much, but i've never regretted loving you so much, I swear. I'm taking back my heart, because you didn't protect it. I don't want to get hurt anymore. Perhaps, all I need is time now. Those moments with you were so sweet, so happy. Everything has come to an end. Well, I guess this is really the end of us. Take care, my dear boy. I still love you. ♥

You're a heartbreaker.

Faithfully waiting,

4:10 AM

♥ Sunday, September 19, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

Sorry for not updating often uh. I'm lazy. :x alright, happy birthday mom! I spent $60+ today to get a necklace, birthday cake and durian mooncake to pamper her. Pure durian mooncake! Expensive and small. Its okay, once a year. :D baby came downb find me today. Sleep sleep and sleep! Tomorrow is our 5th monthsary. But well, I feel that we're drifting apart. It always the same, hot and cold. I don't know how to hang on anymore. I gave in to everything, but well, everything still seems to go wrong. After he left at around 1plus, I had not receive a single text from him, so what does this mean? I'm not important at all, right? I don't wanna text you, I shall see when you're gonna text me. Bye!

Faithfully waiting,

10:40 PM

♥ Friday, September 17, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

你的臉貼在我胸口
淚水早已滲透了我的衣袖
你我都沉默了許久
不該說的話你終於說出口
擁抱過後你轉身就走
我笑著說再見心卻在顫抖
我已沒有勇氣問你
離開的理由

想說聲愛你已很久
可我從來都沒有
以前我對你不夠好
我也很難受

只怪自己當初沒有抓緊你的手
失去了你我才知道你有多重要
現在說後悔也沒有用
心雖然很痛
只怪自己當初沒有將愛說出口
現在想說聲愛你已找不到借口
失去你以後
我連呼吸也好難受

擁抱過後你轉身就走
我笑著說再見心卻在顫抖
我已沒有勇氣問你
離開的理由
想說聲愛你已很久
可我從來都沒有
以前我對你不夠好
我也很難受

只怪自己當初沒有抓緊你的手
失去了你我才知道你有多重要
現在說後悔也沒有用
心雖然很痛
只怪自己當初沒有將愛說出口
現在想說聲愛你已找不到借口
失去你以後
我連呼吸也好難受

只怪自己當初沒有抓緊你的手
失去了你我才知道你有多重要
現在說後悔也沒有用
心雖然很痛
只怪自己當初沒有將愛說出口
現在想說聲愛你已找不到借口
失去你以後
我連呼吸也好難受

Faithfully waiting,

10:59 AM

♥ Thursday, September 16, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

Can't find the lyrics for this song, love it alot. Well, 4days never see my dearest boy already. :( i'm so bored at home. I wanna go out. I wanna go out, I WANNA GO OUT! I'm going crazy staying at home everyday and rot. My blog is getting so uninteresting already. And I feel I have no life at all. Shit manzxc! This is not happening right! its okay, after 5th October I can go out already. I wanna go shopping. :D shall post again tomorrow. Enjoy the songs and MV alright! Bye. Stay tune!

I miss you, skinny bastard. [: 4more days to our 5th monthsary. I love you, bebe! ^-^

Faithfully waiting,

4:04 PM

♥ Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

我可以忍受你不夠愛我我可以忍受你有別的夢
就算是偏謊話哄我至少你還在乎我的感受
我可以忍受眼神的空洞我可以忍受你時間不夠用
卻不能忍受做了那麼多是他擁有我該得到的溫柔

愛著你是我改不了也不願改的習慣要放開哪有那麼簡單
了解你是我說不出也不承認的悲哀包容你是我體諒的愛別當作應該

Oh no no no 不要說對不起原來你要的不是我 (你要的是什麼)
不要說謝謝你什麼你永遠在我心中 (你說的我都不懂)
Can you tell me why? (tell me why) 這樣的我你也曾愛過不是嗎 (不是嗎)

是他擁有我沒看過的笑容

Stayed at home whole day. Cook speghetti for lunch today. Msn is so quiet naoz. :( listening to songs to kill my time. Nothing much to post already. Bye, readers. Stay tune! Byeszxc.

Faithfully waiting,

6:43 PM

♥ Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

猜不透

你最近時好時壞的沈默

我也不想去追問太多

讓試探為彼此的心上了鎖

猜不透

相處會比分開還寂寞

兩個人都只是得過且過

無法感受每次觸摸

是真的是熱的

如果忽遠忽近的灑脫

是你要的自由

那我寧願回到一個人生活

如果忽冷忽熱的溫柔

是你的藉口

那我寧願對你從沒認真過

猜不透

相處會比分開還寂寞

兩個人都只是得過且過

無法感受每次觸摸

是真的是熱的

如果忽遠忽近的灑脫

是你要的自由

那我寧願回到一個人生活

如果忽冷忽熱的溫柔

是你的藉口

那我寧願對你從沒認真過

如果忽遠忽近的灑脫

是你要的自由

那我寧願回到一個人生活

如果忽冷忽熱的溫柔

是你的藉口

那我寧願對你從沒認真過

到底這感覺誰對誰錯

我已不想追究

越是在乎的人越是猜不透

Faithfully waiting,

5:10 PM

♥ Monday, September 13, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

他不爱我　牵手的时候太冷清

拥抱的时候不够靠近

他不爱我说话的时候不认真

沉默的时候又太用心

我知道他不爱我

他的眼神　说出他的心

我看透了他的心还有别人逗留的背影

他的回忆清除得不够乾净

我看到了他的心　演的全是他和她的电影

他不爱我尽管如此　他还是赢走了我的心

Faithfully waiting,

9:24 PM

♥ Sunday, September 12, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

天涼了　雨下了　妳走了

清楚了　我愛的　遺失了

落葉飄在湖面上睡著了

想要放　放不掉　淚在飄

妳看看　妳看　看不到

我假裝過去不重要　卻發現自己辦不到

說了再見　才發現再也見不到

我不能就這樣失去妳的微笑

口紅待在桌角　而妳我找不到

若角色對調妳說好不好

說了再見　才發現再也見不到

能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉

說好陪我到老　永恆往那裡找

再次擁抱一分一秒都好

妳的笑　妳的好　腦海裡　一直在繞

我的手　忘不了　妳手的溫度

心碎了一地　撿不回從前的心跳　身陷過去我無力逃跑

說再見　才發現再也見不到

能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉

說好陪我到老　永恆往那裡找

再次擁抱一分一秒都好

Bby came down find me at around 4pm. He bought me a t-shirt, sweet. :) eat then rest awhile. Around 7pm, he go back TPY find his friends. And i'm bored now. Mom just come back. Watching tv at the same time. Just had dinner and ate my medicine. Shall end here. Bye, stay tune! :)

Faithfully waiting,

7:54 PM

♥ Saturday, September 11, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone

Faithfully waiting,

6:56 PM

♥ Friday, September 10, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

Sorry for not posting yesterday, kind of lazy. :\ k, was at home whole day. Bby come find me. Around 7plus, he left. So used computer. Download songs and stuffs. Today nobody come find me. ): lonely right. Kkkkkk, never mind. Lazy to post already. Byebye. [:

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂?

Faithfully waiting,

3:44 PM

♥ Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定

放弃你忘记你只怕我无法前进

不知到为什么会如此莫名紧张你

我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你

我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语

该如何整理幸福在手里

我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你

我假装不在意反而痛了自己

多痛都可以不能没有你

只想永远永远爱你你知不知道我也没关系

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定

但为何到如今我依然无法前进

不知到为什么会如此莫名紧张你

我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你

我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语

该如何整理幸福在手里

我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你

我假装不在意反而痛了自己

多痛都可以不能没有你

只想永远永远爱你你知不知道我也没关系

明知道我爱你假装不在意

多痛都可以不能没有你

只想永远永远爱你你知不知道真的没关系

This is the only song that could express my feelings now. I have no mood to post. Bye.

Faithfully waiting,

5:12 PM

♥ Monday, September 6, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

Okay, i'm finally home. Injections are killing me. Pain pain pain.

Well, I hope you're better off without me. I ain't perfect, I know. I don't wanna lose you. Because you're the first I loved so deeply, yet hurt me much deeper too. It really hurts to lose you. But I guess you would be happier without me in your life. I do miss the days we had together. And I really love you. I promise to love no one else, only you. Nobody can enter my life anymore. My heart will always open for you to let you step in to my life again. I will wait for your return, even if its impossible. I love you, C.JunJie. ♥

Faithfully waiting,

6:14 PM

♥ Friday, September 3, 2010

Yours Truly, Joey

Okay, sorry for not posting. Was tired. :/

Currently in KK Hospital now. Have to stay until tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. D: hate it. Can't sleep well, the nurse keep come and pester me. :( waiting for Mom, Grandma and sister to come. Hungry already, waiting for my dinner to serve as well. :) feel like sleeping. :/ k, end here. Nothing to post.

Baby oh baby, :( i love you. I'll never give up on you or anything. ♥

Faithfully waiting,

4:50 PM